Give Me A Reason

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Give me a reason

Like leaves in the seasons

To change, for you

It’s been a long hard winter

I’m prepared to wither away

But you say you don’t want me to

Oh, you want me to stay

But oh, I don’t want to stand still

Just give me a reason

You beg and you’re pleading

For me

But you have nothing to give

Winter has ended

I don’t want to get left stranded

Watching you walk away

Oh no, no, no, no

Just give me a reason to stay.

A song written for a Fantasy in progress, What If. Read the first few chapters on my other blog authormercedes.weebly.com

You Smile

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Storm clouds form in the distance
You hold an umbrella over my head
But it is broken and rain leaks through
Still you smile, and I smile back at you.

This picture we drew is an illusion
And heat melts the paint away
But when you brush against my hand
You assure me  it will all be OK.

Still the ocean roars and the earth shivers
The stars fall and the sun burns
You put on shades and smile with your teeth
Glowing, you bring strength to me.

 

I’ll Move On

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Raining on the inside
Sunshine on the out
Gotta put a smile on
To hide the clouds
No I won’t let you see me cry
No you can’t have my heart this time.
There’s a tornado in my rib cage
Lava fills my gut
Even though it hurts to breathe
I’ll move on
No I won’t let you see me fall
No you can’t hurt me at all.
‘Cause it’s winter in my brain
But summer’s in the air
Even though it’s snowing,
Well I just don’t care
No I won’t let you see me break
No you won’t bring me down today
No you won’t bring me down today
No you won’t bring me down today.

 

I am Winter

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It’s winter again
The cold has rolled in
The frost has started and
The ice took my heart again.
I am frozen
I am cold
I can’t feel
I don’t see the point any more.
The snow is sticking now
It twinkles like fallen stars
But it melts at your touch
Because it was empty from the start.
I am hallow
Wind blows through me
I can’t feel
So I’m done pretending.
As dead as leafless trees
I stand with a slight desire within me
To live long enough for spring
When maybe I can begin blossoming
But as the night carries on
With no sign of day
I give up waiting for dawn
And just accept the gray.

 

Believe

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Believe that I tried to say goodbye
It’s just that your smile brought me to shame
And my legs grew heavier as I tried to back away.

Believe that I was going to let you go
And end this whole charade
But your skin brushed against mine and everything grew gray.

Believe that I know this is wrong
And I know you do too
So why is it the right thing is just so hard to do?

 

Warm December

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That ring on your finger,
Yes the one that’s been missing
I think of it and wonder
What the hell am I doing?

But your brown eyes glow like embers
Attracting me to the flames
Lured by your warmth in this December
I am coated in shame.

And I know I am better than this
But I don’t want to be
Because when we’re hip to hip
Desire controls me.

My home, My haven

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Your irises like crystal waters

swimming around your pupils.

Your skin looks like a snow canvas

but only spreads warmth.

Your hands blank and wide

tightly grips onto mine.

Your lips full and thin

are soft then firm.

Your presence is guarded

but I’m prepared to knock down your walls

because your embrace is my home;

your arms are my haven.

Time and Time Again

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Memories swirling around me like wind

I still remember the contours of your skin

Under my fingertips, lips on lips

Burning passion, flaming desire

To tongue kiss, a hit and miss

Trying hard just not to get caught…

 

I still think about you now and then

Don’t really want to but I can’t seem to help it.

Trying not to think about how you left me broken hearted

Time and time again

 

Winter air takes me there, to that night I remember

Our breaths were cold, our tongues were warm

I did not know it was the eye of your storm

Would not have taken your hand

If I had known what I was in for…

 

I still think about you now and then

Don’t really want to but I can’t seem to help it.

Trying not to think about how you left me broken hearted

Time and time again

 

Trying to forget about the pain you brought my way

Trying to forget about the days I was happy

Because they were always followed by sorrow

You only brought me trouble

 

I still think about you now and again

Don’t want to, but I can’t seem to forget

I try not to remember how you left me broken hearted

Time and time again

 

Ice Queen

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You’re right

I’m cold

I have a heart made of stone

So why is it that you love me?

So why is it that you stay?

Is it because you think you can melt the ice away?

Well you can’t

I’ve built up a wall

So tall

That you can’t even see

The other side where it’s me:

The Ice Queen.

Where I don’t feel pain

Where my heart is heavy on my tongue

My mouth- sewn shut

My lungs are filled with frost

But I don’t feel a thing

Because my whole body is numbing

If you think you can warm me

You’re wrong

Even if you climb over the wall

I’m gone

Sure I might be there physically

But me, the real me, was never inside my body

I am winter

I am cold

I am ice

I am frozen

Summer won’t thaw me

Spring won’t warm me

Fire won’t melt me

Heat won’t heal me,

And you?

You can’t save me.