Raining Hearts

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Oh, how the years have flown by
How many things have changed with time
But certain things remain the same
My love for you has never changed.
Yeah I’ve lived and seen enough
To know I can’t escape this love
‘Cause it seems like no matter where I ran
You were like a ghost, always hauntin’

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Now it’s raining hearts
And I watch as they crash on the sidewalk
Stepping through puddles of blood
I reach to the sky for love

How naive we used to be
Who am I kidding?
Look at how naive we are
Guarding our hearts
Like they won’t get bruised
But that’s no excuse
To hide what I feel
You feel it too
So just pull back the peel
And admit the truth

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Now it’s raining hearts
And I watch as they crash on the sidewalk
Stepping through puddles of blood
I reach to the sky for love

I reach in your chest
Will you let me take the rest
Of this beating organ
If it’s broken
I can help you heal
If you let me
You don’t have to deal
Alone…

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Now it’s raining hearts
And I watch as they crash on the sidewalk
Stepping through puddles of blood
I reach to the sky for love

It’s raining hearts
The clouds swell as the storm rages on
I throw my head towards the sun
As the rain falls down with love

 

Another very old song, I’m surprised I never published. It’s one of my favorites. A friend of mine was going to rap the verses as I sang the chorus ^-^

Waiting (Re-Written for Out of the Ocean)

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I’ve been waiting
For you to finally see
That you’re the only one for me
Got me on my knees
Begging you silently
Please just open your eyes.

Here I’m standing
Right in front of you
Pouring out my heart
But it don’t get to you
I’m screaming out your name
But you don’t hear
Please just open your ears

Come to me, oh, come to me
Come to me, I’ve been waiting

Follow my voice
To the shore
Hear me now
I’m waiting at your door
I can see a storm brewing
Over the sea
Can you see what I see?

I’ll protect your heart
I’ll never tear it
I will keep you safe
You can trust that
I will keep you dry
When it rains bad
Please, open your heart to me

Come to me, oh, come to me
Come to me, I’ve been waiting

I can’t keep waiting
For you to notice
I love you
The way she doesn’t
I won’t wait forever
Please don’t take much longer
To realize we were made for each other

So come to me, please come to me
I’ve been waiting, I am begging

I’ve been waiting for you to finally
See that you’re the only one for me

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I re-wrote Waiting for Out of the Ocean, the sequel to What it Took to Realize/ Voodoo (inspired by Alexz Johnson) which is available for Kindle on Amazon. I had written a different song for Out of the Ocean, but I wasn’t very fond of it. That was when I realized I had a perfectly good song already written, so I took Waiting and personalized it for the character so it would fit the story!

Go to the original song Here!

Check out What it Took to Realize/Voodoo <—-there

Rust Away

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I used to think sadness was love
That needing someone was the same as longing for their touch
I used to think I would never be good enough
For anyone because no one could make the sacrifices I was

Stuck outside, ready to rust away
When you came by, sheltered me from the rain
You looked in my eyes and said it would be okay.
And for the first time, I wasn’t worried.Rust Away

I used to believe pain was happiness
Because feeling anything was better than the emptiness
I used to believe I was destined for loneliness
Because no one would let me inside of them

I was stuck outside, ready to rust away
When you came by, sheltered me from
the rain
You looked in my eyes and said it would be okay.
And for the first time, I wasn’t afraid.

For the first time, I’m not alone.
For the first time, I have hope.
For the first time…
For the very first time…

I was stuck outside, ready to rust away
When you came by, sheltered me from the rain
You looked in my eyes and said it would be okay.

It had been all night, was sure I’d rust red
When you brought your light, taught me to shine instead
You took my heart inside of your hand
And for the first time I know what happiness is.

The Last Time

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He found himself at her door. Like so many times before. But he couldn’t remember how he got there. It seemed all roads lead to her.

It was a warm but cool night. He could taste its humidity on his tongue.

Had he walked? Did he drive? He couldn’t remember. Nor could he tear his eyes off of the front door to look for clues. It stood before him tall and looming. The white paint glowed in the darkness like a lantern. He couldn’t even bring himself to knock.

Would she answer if he did? She was probably in her room, all alone, asleep. She probably wouldn’t even hear him.

He whispered her name.

She could feel his call lingering like a sigh through her bones.

She could hear his heart thumping like a jack-rabbit just beyond her front door. If she laid still enough, maybe he would leave. Leave her home. Leave her memory.

“Cecilia.”

She found herself unlocking the front door like she had been in some sort of hypnotic trance.

Their eyes met.

Her heart stopped.

His heart slowed down.

It felt better just to see her face again. Calmed him. And he told her this. “I’m sorry,” he added.

He was wearing his best apology, but not even that was enough. Not after all the times she had let him in, just for him to leave. Was it worth risking another heartbreak?

He knew every promise he had made in the past, he had also broken. Anything he could have said, she would have perceived as a lie.

“Can I come in?”

She didn’t answer but positioned herself in the middle of the doorway, a hand ready to smack that front door right in his face.

“Please.”

She adverted her eyes from his. His crystal eyes always made her weak. She needed strength.

“The last time I let you in, you shattered my grandmother’s porcelain vase.” Her words weren’t grudgeful or sad. They were light and heavy all at once. Just like the night’s summer air.

“I know,” he said. “I’m sorry.”

“I know.”

Again, he pleaded, “Will you let me in?”

She closed her eyes. The way her long lashes fluttered over her rosemary cheeks made the flame in his chest dance. “How long has it been this time?

“Four months.”

She scoffed. “How do I know I can trust you?”

He spoke so low even he couldn’t hear himself whimper, “That’s not fair.”

“Not fair?” She laughed, but her face twisted into a knot. She laughed, but tears streamed from both of her eyes. She laughed. She sobbed. And right before him, she was breaking. There was no where for her to hide or for him. No other reasons why, just the two of them.

He broke. He was at fault, he knew. And he knew he never wanted to be the reason she didn’t smile. Be the reason she cried. “I will never hurt you again,” he swore. “I’m done with that stuff for good.”

She collapsed to her knees. Her auburn hair fell before her face like branches of a willow, shielding herself from him. This is why he was surprised when he knelt down next to her and put his arm around her, that she folded into his chest. She gripped onto his shirt with her fists and cried so hard her entire body shook against his and her throat started to become raw. With a gasp for air she said, “This is the last time I’m asking you, put my name at the top of you list.”

“Of course.”

She calmed down slightly afterwards. Tears fell silently off the point of her chin and her heart still struggled to get back to its smooth rhythmic beat. Between hiccups she repeated, “This is the last time.”

He helped her to her feet.

“This is the last time.”

He lifted her so that her head rested in the nook between his head and his shoulder.

“This is the last time.”

He carried her in.

Passion and Desire

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Your presence lingers
I can feel the tips of your fingers on my naked skin.

Your eyes burn like fire
But your love is the cool kind of sin.

You take me higher
Passion and desire
I wish I could fix you

Your scent sticks to me like glue
You’re the kind of mirror I can see through

You make everything okay
You make gray look like the color blue

You take me higher
Passion and desire
I wish I could fix you

Life hasn’t been fair to you
I can change it, if you want me to

We can turn the world upside-down
Who cares if we shake the ground?
I think change is what we need right now

You take me higher
Passion and desire
Let’s fly higher
I wish I could fix you

I Don’t Want To Be A Sinner

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I didn’t mean to make a mess of things,
I guess neither did you
But you and I are both sinners
And we just do as sinners do

We lust, we lie, we cheat, that’s life
We loved, we lost, now it’s time to say goodbye.

I don’t want to be a sinner
But Lord knows I ain’t a saint
Neither of us is the winner,
Because neither of us could think
I don’t want to be a sinner
But I guess that’s what I am
Neither of us is the winner
Because you and I are both damned.

I didn’t mean to ruin your life
I guess I am just a whore
Because instead of going to the light
I followed you into the dark

I didn’t mean to fall in love
I guess you might say the same
But neither of us could stay away
Now we’re both to blame

We lust, we lie, we cheat, that’s life
We loved, we lost, now it’s time to say goodbye.

I don’t want to be a sinner
But Lord knows I ain’t a saint
Neither of us is the winner,
Because neither of us could think
I don’t want to be a sinner
But I guess that’s what I am
Neither of us is the winner
Because you and I are both damned.

I didn’t mean to make a mess of things
I didn’t mean to start a war
I didn’t mean to ask for so much
But I was greedy, I wanted more

I don’t want to be a sinner
But Lord knows I ain’t a saint
Because when he tested my faith,
I threw it all a way
I don’t want to be a sinner
But I know that’s what I am
Because when I’m kissing you,
I know I am damned.

Rabbit Hole

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There’s a humming in my brain
A pounding in my chest
A ringing in my ear
From the voice that knows me best

And your eyes
Pull me into my demise.

Like glowing embers they burn
Around the center of gravity
Your black hole it pulls
Me into insanity
Here I go
Down the rabbit hole

There’s a scream inside my soul
A tie on my tongue
Heat rises in my bones
An alarm goes off in my lungs

And your eyes
Pull me into my demise

Like glowing embers they burn
Around the center of gravity
Your black hole it pulls
Me into insanity
Here I go
Down the rabbit hole

Can I be saved?
Can I escape?
From which vile should I drink?
Fill the glass to the brink
Will I ever wake from this dream?
Your illusions are so cunning

And your eyes
Pull me into my demise

Like glowing embers they burn
Around the center of gravity
Your black hole it pulls
Me into insanity
Here I go
Down the rabbit hole

I’ll Move On

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Raining on the inside
Sunshine on the out
Gotta put a smile on
To hide the clouds
No I won’t let you see me cry
No you can’t have my heart this time.
There’s a tornado in my rib cage
Lava fills my gut
Even though it hurts to breathe
I’ll move on
No I won’t let you see me fall
No you can’t hurt me at all.
‘Cause it’s winter in my brain
But summer’s in the air
Even though it’s snowing,
Well I just don’t care
No I won’t let you see me break
No you won’t bring me down today
No you won’t bring me down today
No you won’t bring me down today.

 

Too Bad

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I don’t know how we got here
I don’t know how to escape
I don’t know why my heart
Keeps beating your name.
And it’s killing me…
And it’s killing me…
There’s a hole in my chest
That burns with every breath
But when you take my hand
It stings a little less
Because you heal me…
Because you heal me…
There are stars in your eyes
Like a rocket, together we fly
Too bad you are not mine…
I don’t know where we go from here
I don’t if we can move forward
Seems like we’re stuck where we are
In the realm of dirty, guilty hearts
And it’s killing me…
And it’s killing me…
I am a prisoner in your chest
Your rib cage holds me back
When you cry your heart turns blue
When I cry, I cry over you
Because we can’t be…
Because we can’t be…
There are stars in your eyes
Like a rocket, together we fly
All through space and time
Too bad you are not mine
Too bad you will never be mine
Because when our lips touch
And our eyes meet
There is no where else I’d rather be
And it’s killing me.

Don’t Break My Heart

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Can I trust you
If I give this to you
Will you keep it safe
Lock it away?
Can I believe you
Keep it in your care
Trust you’ll protect it
Keep it somewhere safe

I only want to ask you one thing
Can you promise me one thing?

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Don’t break my heart
It’s a tattered little thing
It’s been broken before
And I just got it working again
So please be careful with me…

It’s been rained on
It’s been dried
It’s been shattered
And it’s been tied.
I usually keep it in a block of ice
But I’ll let you have it
Just please be kind

I only want to ask you one thing
Can you promise me one thing?

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Don’t break my heart
It’s a tattered little thing
It’s been broken before
And I just got it working again
So please be careful with me…

I don’t really want to give it up
Unless I’m sure
You won’t take it and rip it apart
I’m sick of watching it bleed
But a band-aide just won’t do
Can I hand it over and expect you to…

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Not break my heart
It’s a tattered little thing
It’s been broken before
And I just got it working again
So please be careful with me…

So please, don’t break my heart…