I am Winter

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It’s winter again
The cold has rolled in
The frost has started and
The ice took my heart again.
I am frozen
I am cold
I can’t feel
I don’t see the point any more.
The snow is sticking now
It twinkles like fallen stars
But it melts at your touch
Because it was empty from the start.
I am hallow
Wind blows through me
I can’t feel
So I’m done pretending.
As dead as leafless trees
I stand with a slight desire within me
To live long enough for spring
When maybe I can begin blossoming
But as the night carries on
With no sign of day
I give up waiting for dawn
And just accept the gray.

 

And So I Smile

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My heart is breaking away
I feel my ribcage shrinking up
Your name is sweet ans sour on my tongue
And I’m losing faith in this word called love

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And so I smile
To cover up the pain
And so I smile
And tuck my emotions away
And so I smile
Even when I don’t want to
I smile so you won’t see the truth

I’m getting sick of these games
I never really liked them any way
And why am I so confused
When you seem to find this so amusing?
I was tired from the start
Now I’m just worn-out
And I’m losing

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And so I smile
To cover up the pain
And so I smile
And tuck my emotions away
And so I smile
Even when I don’t want to
I smile so you won’t see the truth

So what if I’m falling apart inside
So what if I have the urge to cry
So what if my heart is breaking
It don’t mean a thing…
So what if your lack of affection
Is eating at my emotions
So what if I have always wanted this
You don’t seem to give a shit

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And so I smile
To cover up the pain
And so I smile
And tuck my emotions away
And so I smile
Even when I don’t want to
I smile so you won’t see the truth

And so I smile
To cover up this frown
And so I smile
So you’ll turn away
And so I smile
Even when I don’t want to
I smile so you won’t se e the truth