With each step further
The cold creeps up my spine
Behind the bushy clouds
The sun hides behind.
I want to be apart of you
If you’ll let me inside
I want us to be one
Rolling, soundless tide.
I wade further into you
The freeze gripping my chest
With the cold pain
I hold my breath.
Suddenly there is warmth
And I know you have let me in
My muscles relax
I feel my body sinking… sinking.
Your rays of heat
Melt the snow from me
Spring came too late
But I cannot wait-
I need to breathe
My lungs aren’t working…
I am still cold…
I need to come alive
I need to come to life
I need to…
I need you…
To lift me up
Into the sun
And watch me bloom
Until the
Moon wans
Like a lonely swan
I bow my head in shame
The light’s been gone
For so damn long
That it hurts
When you look my way…
I am still cold…
I need to be alive
I need the warmth inside
I need to feel
I need to heal
These blackened wounds
That prevent me to bloom
I will mend them
Soon I’ll have no excuse
For my selfish ties
When day does come
And spring has begun
I will know
To say goodbye
I need to say goodbye
I need to come to life
I need to…
I need to…
I need to feel the heart
Beating at the core
Of the earth
And I will be new
I will be new
Again.
It’s winter again
The cold has rolled in
The frost has started and
The ice took my heart again.
I am frozen
I am cold
I can’t feel
I don’t see the point any more.
The snow is sticking now
It twinkles like fallen stars
But it melts at your touch
Because it was empty from the start.
I am hallow
Wind blows through me
I can’t feel
So I’m done pretending.
As dead as leafless trees
I stand with a slight desire within me
To live long enough for spring
When maybe I can begin blossoming
But as the night carries on
With no sign of day
I give up waiting for dawn
And just accept the gray.
Dear Lake,
You are not the sea
But something about you I find alluring.
Dear Lake,
You are as cold as ice
But something about you warms my insides.
Dear Lake,
Your water soothes my soul
I wish to be apart of you, if you’ll just show me how.
Dear Lake,
You sink into my skin
Rejuvenating me from the outside in.
All words have already been said
What more can I say to describe the way you get into my head?
You bring me to heaven
The moon
Then back again
To finish me off with the heat of your breath
On my tongue
Into my lungs
Keeping your eyes on mine
Your gaze is my kryptonite.
You’re hotter than the sun
My skin burns under your touch
But your eyes
Like cool rays of ice
You keep me hot and cold
Begging
Begging
Begging for more
You’re right
I’m cold
I have a heart made of stone
So why is it that you love me?
So why is it that you stay?
Is it because you think you can melt the ice away?
Well you can’t
I’ve built up a wall
So tall
That you can’t even see
The other side where it’s me:
The Ice Queen.
Where I don’t feel pain
Where my heart is heavy on my tongue
My mouth- sewn shut
My lungs are filled with frost
But I don’t feel a thing
Because my whole body is numbing
If you think you can warm me
You’re wrong
Even if you climb over the wall
I’m gone
Sure I might be there physically
But me, the real me, was never inside my body
I am winter
I am cold
I am ice
I am frozen
Summer won’t thaw me
Spring won’t warm me
Fire won’t melt me
Heat won’t heal me,
And you?
You can’t save me.