Dark clouds in my head
Rain cascades over my ribs
Salty and acidic
Eroding my bones
I am broken
Haunted
And so far gone lost.
I thought this would be a good poem for Wildest Dreams. A little side project I am working on. Read part of it here, a picture-it & write inspiration!
Falling to pieces
Falling to pieces
Falling to pieces
Falling to pieces
I am a broken puzzle
On the floor at your door
You left me there to
Pull myself together
But I don’t know how
These pieces fit
Now I am just useless
You build me up to knock me down
And I let it happen
I went along with your plan
Because I was too blind to see ahead
Everything that felt so right
Was wrong inside
How am I
Supposed to say goodbye?
Once upon a time
Not so long ago
You came into my life
And I felt your warmth
Now all that I have
Are the hallows
You ditched me in
To fend for myself
But I am just a foolish girl
Who never should trust this evil world
But I must believe there is life for me
No, I will not bleed at my seams
You build me up to knock me down
You knock me down
You knock me down
Why?
You build me up to knock me down
And I let it happen
I went along with your plan
Because I was too blind to see ahead
Even now when I know the truth
I would still follow you
I would still follow you
…
I’d follow you
…
I’m falling to pieces
I’m falling to pieces
I’m falling to pieces
I’m falling away
The silence screams your name
Every where I turn I see your face
It feels like you’re haunting me
Because no matter where I go
Because every step I take
I cannot breathe
And you’re gone, you’re leaving
You said goodbye, now I’m bleeding
For the last time, for the last time
I give my heart away
Because it only breaks
Broken down, lifeless
I’ve lost the light, in the darkness
You reach out but my hand falls through yours
I hear your voice ringing in my mind
I can’t shake it out like water this time
When you say my name, when you say my name
I’m shaken again
Because you’re gone, you’re leaving
You said goodbye, now I’m bleeding
For the last time, for the last time
I give my heart away
Because it only breaks
Like meteors crashing down to earth
I’m falling
I’ve fallen so hard for you
And what was it worth?
What was it worth?
You’re eyes burn like fire
Attracting me to the flames
And you’re arms disguised as a safe haven
Where I only found shame
And you’re words, oh they sound so sweet
But you’re innocence ain’t gonna fool me any more
Can’t fool me any more
Because I’m gone, I’m leaving
This is my goodbye
I’m gone, I can’t keep bleeding
Because this is the last time
This is the last time
I’ll give away my heart
This is the last time
I’ll give away my heart
Original written 6/28/08:
You didn’t talk to me when you said you would
You weren’t there for me, when you said you could be
You were never there for me
I was all alone
Didn’t have a home
And you found a way into my soul
Into my soul.
And the light’s turning black
I need to find away back out of your arms
Out of your arms.
I’m giving into you
‘Cause I know deep inside you love me too.
But you only push me away
I know you don’t want to make the same mistake
Again
But this is not the way to amend
Your broken past
You blame me for things you’ve done
You act so tough and push away everyone you love
I try to save you
Try to protect you
Even if you don’t do the same for me
You don’t do the same for me
And the light’s turning black
I need to find away back out of your arms
Out of your arms
I’m giving into you
‘Cause I know deep inside you love me too.
But you only push me away
I know you don’t want to make the same mistake
Again
But this is not the way to amend
Your broken past
You’re so torn up
But I need your pep talk
You’re not the only one
You’re not alone
We can save each other from our broken past
I’m giving into you
‘Cause I know deep inside you love me too.
But you only push me away
I know you don’t want to make the same mistake
Again
But this is not the way to amend
Your broken past
Re-Write:
You didn’t talk to me when you said you could
You weren’t there for me when you said you would be
You were never there for me
I was all alone
Didn’t have a home
And you found your way into my soul
Into my soul
And the light’s turning black
I need to find a way back out of your arms
Out of your arms
I cared for you
I know somewhere inside you did too
But you only pushed me away
I know you don’t want to make the same mistakes
Again
But this is not the way to amend
You’re broken past.
You blame me for things you’ve done
Act so tough and push away everyone you love
Push away, push away
I try to protect you, try to save you
But you don’t do the same for me
Push away, push away
And the light’s turning black
I need to find a way back out of your arms
Out of your arms
I cared for you
I know somewhere inside you did too
But you only pushed me away
I know you don’t want to make the same mistakes
Again
But this is not the way to amend
You’re broken past.
You’re so torn-up
Can’t even talk
But you’re not the only one
Why can’t you see?
You’re so messed-up
Ready to give up
But you’re not alone
I’ve always waited for you to come home
I cared for you
I know somewhere inside you did too
But you only pushed me away
I know you don’t want to make the same mistakes
Again
But this is not the way to amend
You’re broken past.
Bi-polar disorder are you my beholder?
Spinning tossing sinking into the sea
I’m falling.
….
I’m sinking not swimming help me I’m drowning
Sickness weakness is there a treatment
For me?
….
I don’t feel like a whole, twirling out of control
My emotions are in a frenzy, I’m not thinking clearly
….
Fuzzy Rusty I’m feeling a bit dizzy
Heartbeat retreat a little off beat
Today.
….
Anger monster here are my true colors
Second minute is there a difference?
Time is loose.
….
I don’t feel like a whole, twirling out of control
My emotions are in a frenzy, I’m not thinking clearly
….
Lost gone all is wrong
False pulse I give you my faults
I’ve cracked.
….
Rough tough I’ve had enough
Broken fallen my entire world is crumbling
Down.
Gather up
The broken pieces of my soul
Throw away
All my memories that are cold.
Put together
The puzzle of my heart
That was
Shattered by a dart.
Fix up
My lost sight
Help me
Find the quickly dimming light.
Whisper to
Me stories of endless love
Lie and
Say life isn’t tough.
Promise me
True love exists
Show me
The fireworks of the perfect kiss.
Give me
A rose without thorns
And cry
When there is no reason to mourn.
So she sang to me
“My little Sunshine”
and you tell me
“I’ll love you all the time
Little girl don’t you fear
Your daddy will be right here
who’s that watching outside your window?
Daddy, that’s right you know”
bridge: then they handcuffed you and took you away
she gave me a kiss and said “I’m so sorry”
chorus: and the waves crashed down around me
and you kissed me softly
“Goodnight, I love you, goodnight”
the dark ripped at my heart
as a child I fell apart
do you even know?
the pain still threatens to show
my broken memories
As I grow older, stronger
you’ve somehow made me weaker
like I’m living in an endless winter
you use to say, together
we could melt the snow
but do you even know?
How I live in fear
Afraid, one day you’ll actually show
I’m a helpless deer
In the headlight of your vehicle
bridge: then they handcuffed you and took you away
she gave me a kiss and said “I’m so sorry”
chorus: and the waves crashed down around me
and you kissed me softly
“Goodnight, I love you, goodnight”
the dark ripped at my heart
as a child I fell apart
do you even know?
the pain still threatens to show
my broken memories
As I’m sprawled across the floor
It’s mom who find me here
Letters in my hands
and I won’t let them go
she asks, “Honey, what’s wrong?”
I’m trying so hard to hold on
How come you can always make me cry
even when you’re no where’s in sight?
Then I remember when
they handcuffed you and took you away
she gave me a kiss and said “I’m so sorry”
chorus: and the waves crashed down around me
and you kissed me softly
“Goodnight, I love you, goodnight”
the dark ripped at my heart
as a child I fell apart
do you even know?
the pain still threatens to show
my broken memories
You’re the nightmare I’m reliving
My broken memories
I still can’t listen to this song without crying.
